Entry Four

They say that change doesn't happen overnight. I think this is one of those truths that's not always true, it's a generalization that people like to tack onto subjects like weight loss and changing men. But I do think there are somethings that suddenly just click and you're a little different. Let me explain.

We spend six hours in the car today looking at houses for rent (add that to the three hours we spent yesterday and that's 9 hours). Now don't get me wrong I love to look at houses, it's something I get a lot of joy out of. Even just for a minor oneshot I would look up the house for whatever character I was currently writing I love them. That's not what we were doing today, we were literally driving around (we did probably nearly 100 miles in a 20 mile radius) and looking for houses with signs that said for Rent or Lease. We got to see in side of one actually house we could consider renting. I've never been car sick in my entire life and I seriously thought that I was going to die, I was not having fun from the start and I felt like crap.

Now the old me would have complained about it until we opted out of doing it and found something else to do. Today I just sucked it up and did it because that's what everyone else was having such a grand time doing. And I've found myself doing that just a little bit more. It's not a huge change by any means but it's a little change and I think it's cool, it's sudden I've only started noticing it the last couple of days but I think it's pretty cool.

Aww, little ol' me is growing up.

It's funny really sometimes I still wonder what it will be like when I'm all grown up - and 5 years ago I would have said this is grown up. We were joking today that I was going to live with Emily and Sean forever and I think at the rate I'm going I will be living with them forever. I'm not really sure how a person makes it on their own in this world without being married. I don't mean that from the, oh I feel so lonely perspective. I just mean, how do you afford to be a grown up all by yourself. It's like that Savage Garden song, Affirmation "I believe the fight for financial freedom isn't fair".

So, yes I'm ending this blog with lyrics only because now I love this song and I've had to put it on itunes.

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe you’re most attractive features are your heart and soul.
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your own happiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye